Published words have been elusive as of late. I’m not entirely sure why but I have an inkling. I’m feeling good. Not great but good. I’m feeling vulnerable and a little less confident. I’m feeling the weight of the mental health stigma and I’m shying away from putting pen to paper, err rather… fingers to keys. I’ve scribbled many starts in my countless notebooks.
Negative self-talk. It’s a killer. I know I’ve been struggling lately. It happens when I put my focus on what I’m NOT doing or achieving. The change in diet has been emotional. And I am feeling like I’m constantly failing. That’s because I’m not attaining perfect execution day in and day out. I put a lot of pressure on myself to reach perfection in my endeavors. And I always fall short. And I’m always hard on myself. But I am working on it.
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Just finished a long car ride. Those are the best for reflection. Scribbling notes. Writing down thoughts. I have many. Many thoughts. They are a little all over the place. Some are reflections of my past. Some are thoughts on the future world my kids will live in. A lot are in the moment as I reflect on the actions of one man taking the lives of so many in Orlando.
A single act affecting so many lives. So many.
I know a lot of people have things to say about it.
I know what the problem is.
I don’t like medication that treats the symptoms and not the cause. That just isn’t how I roll. But when you’re dealing with a rare medical condition, your choices are limited. Funding isn’t there for research and there is no sense of urgency when so little of the population is affected. Our choices are limited. In fact, we have a single choice. Klonopin or nothing.
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How do you define it? When do you know you’ve achieved it? What are you measuring it against? Yourself and your personal goals? Or are you measuring it against someone else’s goals or achievements? What are you striving for?
I have a love hate relationship with social media.
I love connecting. I love seeing people achieve goals, meet milestones. Share love for others. Find happiness. I love watching babies grow. I love to see people enjoying life. I drink up the inspiration from others. I enjoy the comedic relief of some hilarious people. I appreciate how we can rally support from afar. I love seeing people overcome their struggles.